I have a lot of posts rolling around in my head, but those posts seem content to just roll around up there…nothing seems to want to come out. Hey, it’s cold out these days; I wouldn’t want to come out, either.

So.

I thought I’d just post some stuff about me. Because it’s all about me, right? Heh.

1. I’m deeply insecure and have huge self-esteem issues. If you’ve read my blog for any length of time, you know that by now. I do a Sally Fields every time I get a compliment: “You like me! You really like me!”

2. I’m an introvert. See post here.

3. I strongly dislike my sister=in-law. That’s a post for another day.

4. My brother has Asperger’s Syndrome. It’s on the autism spectrum. As much as I feel bad for his condition, having a family member with a “condition” of any kind is wearing and very frustrating for the “normal” siblings.

5. I’m finally learning, slowly but surely, not to care so much what other’s think, and to find my own voice. Trying to find the balance between being a selfish jerk and meeting my own needs has been a challenge.

6. My favorite colors are blue. Yes I said “are blue” and I’m not trying to be grammatically incorrect. I love almost every shade of blue, the exception being navy. I like bright blue, baby blue, turquoise, teal, ocean blue, regular blue, yadda yadda.

7. My lifelong dream is to be a full-time writer. While I think I write “adequately” I read other people’s blogs and think, “Oh I am such an amateur.” But still, it’s a dream.

8. People who use poor grammar make me crazy. In spoken language, it makes me cringe, but in written form it makes me batshit crazy. See post here. It appalls me how few people know the difference between their, they’re and there; the difference between the use of the apostrophe (possessive vs. plural); your and you’re, to name just a few. What people don’t realize, is how stupid and ignorant it makes them look when the don’t know how to use these correctly.

9. Did you know irregardless isn’t a word?? It isn’t. Stop using it. Let me break it down for you. “Regardless” means “not regarding” as in disregarding something. So saying “irregardless” you’re basically saying “not disregarding” which negates what you’re really trying to say. It’s a double negative.

10. My parents were teachers; what can I say? It’s in the genes. And yes I mean genes, the ones that are my DNA. Not the jeans that I wear on the lower part of my body. Oh, don’t get me started . . .

11. I’ve been married and divorced three times. I’m not sure I want to ever go there again. On the other hand, there is someone wonderful out there with whom I would consider taking that risk. However, he is not currently available for various reasons and I am conflicted about that.

12. If I ever got married again, I think I’d want him to live next door to me, and we’ll just visit a lot. And then I can send him home when I want my own space. What? It might work.

13. I am a rule follower by nature, and it makes me crazy to color outside the lines. It makes me crazy when other people want to color outside the lines, and then want me to do so too, then call me black and white when I don’t.

14. I see shades of grey, I really do. I just am not comfortable in them.

15. I get frustrated by drivers who think they own the road, and that they think they need to be ahead of me. I can’t stand it when drivers will shove their way into the lane in front of my car, when there is absolutely no one behind me for miles, and all they had to do was wait 1/30th of a second so they could pull in behind me. WTF?

16. I’ve learned to throw the f-bomb with abandon. And frequently do.

17. I have to be careful not to use it at work.

18. I need to buy a governor for my mouth. (It’s a car term; Google it).

19. I tend to say what I’m thinking, and I’m happy to share my opinion with you. Whether you want it or not. On the plus side, you won’t ever have to wonder what I’m thinking. I’ll happily tell you. See #17.

20. Yes, my mouth has gotten me in trouble more than once. They say you should keep your mouth shut and be thought a fool, then open your mouth and remove all doubt. I should heed this advice!

21. I used to have another blog, and had it for several years. It had well over 300 posts and over 50 followers. I had to suddenly abandon it when a family member found out about it (the internet is a small place, turns out). Now, many of the fellow bloggers I met on that blog won’t talk to me or allow my comments to be posted to their blogs. This bothers me more than you could ever imagine. I’m not quite sure what I have done. I have to wonder if it is because I said something inappropriate. See #17 and #18. If I did, it was unintentional and I was completely unaware. It was so unintended that I don’t even remember what, if anything, it was. Or maybe it’s my insecurities rearing their ugly head and it has nothing to do with me. Oh well.

22. I don’t have the courage or guts to let my family know about my new blog. I go to great lengths to hide it from them. I let very, very few, very select friends read it. I abhor criticism from those I love. It’s really hard for me to take. Plus, I don’t want to have to censor what I write all the time.

23. I intensely dislike exercise and physical activity. I’m a couch potato of the highest degree. In addition, I love to eat. I love sweets. I love comfort food. My parents used food as a reward, thus I “reward” myself several times a day. This is why I have a lot of extra weight to lose. A lot.

24. I’ve thought about bariatric surgery (lap band, in particular) but I can’t stand the thought of giving up my favorite foods. I’ve seen the way these people have to eat; it’s not pretty. Neither is being fat; I know this.

That’s about it for now. Thank you for listening. I’m averaging about 30 hits a day on my blog, so I know you’re out there.

Ta ta for now!